Break the stigma

So you may or may not know, but may is mental health awareness month.

One of my main goals for creating this blog is to break the stigma.

BUT. It’s hard to be encouraging and finding the power to educate others, when you aren’t doing well yourself.

I want to make many posts this month, but I can’t make any promises. For now.

I want to speak up about myself.

One of my biggest dreams, something I wish for very often, is to find happiness and peace within myself.

I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t confident, and if i said i wasn’t able to make myself happy.

I’ve found myself in a pretty bad spot for the past five weeks, to the point of suicidal thinking. Which before you ask, yes it's scary, and yes I’m fine.

Although my most traumatic experiences happened about a little over two years ago now, my ptsd has been at its worst this year.

I’ve isolated myself, find it very hard to take care of myself, and waking up in the morning is my hardest challenge.

I find joy in the smallest of things, believe it or not...I’m a pretty positive person.

So being in these “never ending moods”

Makes me feel even worse.

I’ve been hurting for what feels like forever now, but I will be okay, everything will be fine.

I’ve received issues from friends, because they just don’t understand.

Which is exactly why I want to continue to speak for myself and others.

Take this as you will, but I am not looking for attention, or sympathy.

In fact. That’s part of the problem, this stigma.

People opening up about their issues and mental health is NOT looking for attention.

People are afraid to speak about this topic because, no one takes it as seriously as they should.

Break the stigma

Oh and don’t forget

Cause a racket!