Hey, tia here!
I’ve been on a very long hiatus
For good reasoning to say the least.
It’s difficult to write about mental illnesses and experiences when you’re still at a state of healing.
My depression & ptsd have been pretty much eating me alive, at least that’s what it feels like.
It feels different from what I’ve normally experienced.
Usually it’s hard, but always bearable. I can get through the day.
I’ve felt trapped by myself lately, in a literal painful sadness. No matter what I try it just won’t go away.
That heavy feeling, no escape.
My ptsd randomly just flashing up for reasons I don’t feel comfortable explaining.
People care, but don’t really understand what I’m feeling.
Why I’m acting the way I am
Times like these really make me realize why I made Tia’s Racket.
To bring light to a pretty much downing post.
My first Tia’s Racket event is finally happening in my school
Less than two weeks!
I’m absolutely grateful
And can’t wait to see how the whole thing goes.
I plan on coming back and posting again shortly after this event.
I will never stop causing a racket
And neither should you :,)
Saturday, October 6, 2018
Thursday, May 24, 2018
Dissociation
People normally experience dissociation
after a difficult event.
Dissociation is when a person disconnects
from their thoughts, memories, surroundings, actions, and even their identity.
It's like falling into a trance, watching life play before you
while not truly living it.
its like a fuzzy alternate universe, which is actually really scary.
trying to regain focus, to come back
is a difficult thing to do
me personally, I use my sense of touch to come back.
I often tap hard surfaces, stroke soft objects such as sweaters,
or hold onto a friend. '
during dissociation you don't feel emotion, BUT it can be triggered by emotions.
being trapped & alone when you're not truly alone.
therapy & lots of self care is the only way to make dissociation better.
I know this was a very short entry
honestly I don't know much about dissociation myself, considering it's something I started
dealing with as of recently.
after a difficult event.
Dissociation is when a person disconnects
from their thoughts, memories, surroundings, actions, and even their identity.
It's like falling into a trance, watching life play before you
while not truly living it.
its like a fuzzy alternate universe, which is actually really scary.
trying to regain focus, to come back
is a difficult thing to do
me personally, I use my sense of touch to come back.
I often tap hard surfaces, stroke soft objects such as sweaters,
or hold onto a friend. '
during dissociation you don't feel emotion, BUT it can be triggered by emotions.
being trapped & alone when you're not truly alone.
therapy & lots of self care is the only way to make dissociation better.
I know this was a very short entry
honestly I don't know much about dissociation myself, considering it's something I started
dealing with as of recently.
( I'll be posting pictures that where taken for this project thanks to @jessetruminski on instagram which you should check out)
cause a racket! :)
Friday, May 11, 2018
PTSD
Post traumatic stress disorder
When you hear this title you often think about veterans
WHICH is true BUT
It’s more than just that.
PTSD happens in the brain when someone experiences extreme trauma
Personally i’ve struggled with this for over a year due to my attack, It was one of the most bizzare things to experience
Although I am pretty used to it now.
Flashbacks leaving you in a frozen trance, dissociation when you fall too deep in the hole.
It also makes you feel like you’re in that same situation even if
You’re simply sitting with some friends.
Even the smallest of things can trigger a panic state for people with PTSD
An estimated 70 percent of adults in the United States have experienced a traumatic event at least once in their lives and up to 20 percent of these people go on to develop post traumatic stress disorder, or PTSD.
An estimated 5 percent of Americans—more than 13 million people—have PTSD at any given time.
Approximately 8 percent of all adults—1 of 13 people in this country—will develop PTSD during their lifetime.
An estimated 1 out of 10 women will get PTSD at some time in their lives. Women are about twice as likely as men to develop PTSD.
A lot of PTSD victims
Avoid the “anniversary” date of their experiences, or any reminders of it.
Their always on guards, never truly focused, and easily irritated.
People with PTSD may have trouble starting friendships or being in romantic relationships.
They may have low self-esteems
Ptsd can cause the human body physical pain and issues as well.
Its something truly hard to deal with, and in my opinion getting help is super worth it.
I thought this drawing was just right for this blog post
it was by my best-friend
(Kai C)
as always cause a racket
Wednesday, May 9, 2018
Depression
Depression.
One of the most common mental illnesses, awareness of the existence of depression is considerably widespread. Even just the word "depression" is thrown around carelessly everyday. Anyone can feel depressed, and it can last any amount of time- a day, a week, a month. But people with clinical depression struggle with this every day.
Depression has been one of my toughest battles since I was first diagnosed at age 13. I was confused. I didn’t feel normal. I always wondered why I didn’t function like the other kids. But I was never truly alone- many of my family members suffer from the same problem. Seeing as I was going to have to live with depression, I decided to educate myself on it.
An estimated 20% of Americans experience depression before they even reach adulthood.
During these times you may oversleep, develop insomnia, loose interests in things you once adored, feel worthless or guilty, lose concentration, and worst of all you may feel suicidal.
Many people believe that depression is an unbalance of certain brain chemicals. Most people get it genetically, or because of a stressful life event. Having depression does not mean you will never be happy, and it doesn’t make you “weird”. Going to therapy or taking medication doesn't make you weird either; it’s helped me and so many other people in this world.
Taking care of yourself is honestly one of the most important things you can do if you have depression, even though it can be incredibly hard (and boy do I know it is). It's incredibly important to keep yourself healthy, and it boosts your mood completely.
This is my first post about a mental illness and truthfully I want to touch on the topic of depression a lot more. However, next I plan on writing about PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder). Thank you for reading this!
And remember to cause a racket!
One of the most common mental illnesses, awareness of the existence of depression is considerably widespread. Even just the word "depression" is thrown around carelessly everyday. Anyone can feel depressed, and it can last any amount of time- a day, a week, a month. But people with clinical depression struggle with this every day.
Depression has been one of my toughest battles since I was first diagnosed at age 13. I was confused. I didn’t feel normal. I always wondered why I didn’t function like the other kids. But I was never truly alone- many of my family members suffer from the same problem. Seeing as I was going to have to live with depression, I decided to educate myself on it.
An estimated 20% of Americans experience depression before they even reach adulthood.
During these times you may oversleep, develop insomnia, loose interests in things you once adored, feel worthless or guilty, lose concentration, and worst of all you may feel suicidal.
Many people believe that depression is an unbalance of certain brain chemicals. Most people get it genetically, or because of a stressful life event. Having depression does not mean you will never be happy, and it doesn’t make you “weird”. Going to therapy or taking medication doesn't make you weird either; it’s helped me and so many other people in this world.
Taking care of yourself is honestly one of the most important things you can do if you have depression, even though it can be incredibly hard (and boy do I know it is). It's incredibly important to keep yourself healthy, and it boosts your mood completely.
This is my first post about a mental illness and truthfully I want to touch on the topic of depression a lot more. However, next I plan on writing about PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder). Thank you for reading this!
And remember to cause a racket!
Sunday, April 15, 2018
Update
It’s been a very long time since I’ve posted really anything on here.
BUT. I’ve been working on the process of something very big for this project. First things is the art portion of it, which I am extremely excited for. It’ll show the view points from teenagers who suffer these things or have witnessed others going through them. It’ll be truly powerful.
I’d also like to mention that my school (east Brunswick votech) participated in March for our lives. A lot of people participated, it was an amazing experience and super amazing to fight for what I believe is right.
The last thing I’d like to mention is.
My schools play this year was one of the best things to ever happen to me. You’re probably wondering how that is relevant to this blog well. I’ve always been into acting ever since I was little but, my anxieties always got the best of me. Not allowing myself to do the bigger roles like I always wanted to. Although my role wasn’t considered a big part. It was super big. Her name was evil Tina, she was the bully (ironic, right?) she was a total brat. I loved performing, evil Tina brought me confidence I’ve never felt before, she made me want to continue doing what I love most. I also learned how to do minor fight Coreo, with REAL swords. The story for the play was amazing, and I was honestly happy to play the bully. It was another way to portray such a strong subject, which is what I’m doing here.
I can’t wait for everyone to see what I have in store for this project
And like always... cause a racket!
BUT. I’ve been working on the process of something very big for this project. First things is the art portion of it, which I am extremely excited for. It’ll show the view points from teenagers who suffer these things or have witnessed others going through them. It’ll be truly powerful.
I’d also like to mention that my school (east Brunswick votech) participated in March for our lives. A lot of people participated, it was an amazing experience and super amazing to fight for what I believe is right.
The last thing I’d like to mention is.
My schools play this year was one of the best things to ever happen to me. You’re probably wondering how that is relevant to this blog well. I’ve always been into acting ever since I was little but, my anxieties always got the best of me. Not allowing myself to do the bigger roles like I always wanted to. Although my role wasn’t considered a big part. It was super big. Her name was evil Tina, she was the bully (ironic, right?) she was a total brat. I loved performing, evil Tina brought me confidence I’ve never felt before, she made me want to continue doing what I love most. I also learned how to do minor fight Coreo, with REAL swords. The story for the play was amazing, and I was honestly happy to play the bully. It was another way to portray such a strong subject, which is what I’m doing here.
I can’t wait for everyone to see what I have in store for this project
And like always... cause a racket!
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